Uncreated Night, ch. 8
Dec. 10th, 2018 07:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
earlybloomingparenthesesChapter 8 of my Remus/Sirius fic is up on ao3!
Rating: Explicit
Fandom: Harry Potter
Pairing: Remus Lupin/Sirius Black
Remus can drift through whole worlds in his own mind. Sirius lives in his body, electric, ablaze. In 1979 and 1996 and 1978 and 1981 and in many other years and many different places, they search for the bridges between them and the spaces they can share. Time after time, they fight their way back together, head and heart, mind and body.
And in 1998, Remus stands before the veil, wondering if he should finally stop thinking, and just act.
these author's notes are cross-posted from tumblr, which I plan on doing from now on.
okay. this chapter! sometimes, when you live in your head, you think you have to live there alone. sometimes, that isn’t true.
Auberon watched them, father and daughter, thinking: It’s not all over, then. […] Not all over: he had lived long in a small room, a folding bedroom, and had explored its every corner, had come to know it as he knew his own bowels, and had decided: this is all right, this will do, a sort of life can be lived here, here’s a chair by the fire and a bed to sleep in and a window to look out of; if it was constricted, that was made up for by how much simple sense it made. And now it was as though he had lowered the front of the mirrored wardrobe and found not a bed clothed in patched sheets and an old quilt but a portal, a ship in full sail raising anchor, a windy dawn and an avenue beneath tall trees disappearing far out of sight. - John Crowley, Little, Big
also: tonks! I worry that by making remus and tonks not be lovers here that I’m playing into the way fandom minimizes her character and doesn’t acknowledge that queer people can be in all configurations of relationships and still be queer. in this story, my decision is based off how little time elapses between sirius’ death and when tonks and remus fall for each other in the book. given how much remus is inclined to shut himself up after sirius’ death, it’s hard for me to imagine him getting together with someone soon after that, especially sirius’ cousin. yet as we know, the specific needs of a specific story don’t excuse it from complicity in larger cultural and historical patterns of shitty biphobic/misogynistic choices. I’m really hoping that making tonks queer and important to this story–she’s in more scenes still to come as well–will help her at least feel like a real person in her own right, one who matters. plus, I am really invested in solidarity and intimacy between queer people who aren’t sleeping together/dating, so there’s that. anyway. feel free to let me know what you think. <3
Rating: Explicit
Fandom: Harry Potter
Pairing: Remus Lupin/Sirius Black
Remus can drift through whole worlds in his own mind. Sirius lives in his body, electric, ablaze. In 1979 and 1996 and 1978 and 1981 and in many other years and many different places, they search for the bridges between them and the spaces they can share. Time after time, they fight their way back together, head and heart, mind and body.
And in 1998, Remus stands before the veil, wondering if he should finally stop thinking, and just act.
these author's notes are cross-posted from tumblr, which I plan on doing from now on.
okay. this chapter! sometimes, when you live in your head, you think you have to live there alone. sometimes, that isn’t true.
Auberon watched them, father and daughter, thinking: It’s not all over, then. […] Not all over: he had lived long in a small room, a folding bedroom, and had explored its every corner, had come to know it as he knew his own bowels, and had decided: this is all right, this will do, a sort of life can be lived here, here’s a chair by the fire and a bed to sleep in and a window to look out of; if it was constricted, that was made up for by how much simple sense it made. And now it was as though he had lowered the front of the mirrored wardrobe and found not a bed clothed in patched sheets and an old quilt but a portal, a ship in full sail raising anchor, a windy dawn and an avenue beneath tall trees disappearing far out of sight. - John Crowley, Little, Big
also: tonks! I worry that by making remus and tonks not be lovers here that I’m playing into the way fandom minimizes her character and doesn’t acknowledge that queer people can be in all configurations of relationships and still be queer. in this story, my decision is based off how little time elapses between sirius’ death and when tonks and remus fall for each other in the book. given how much remus is inclined to shut himself up after sirius’ death, it’s hard for me to imagine him getting together with someone soon after that, especially sirius’ cousin. yet as we know, the specific needs of a specific story don’t excuse it from complicity in larger cultural and historical patterns of shitty biphobic/misogynistic choices. I’m really hoping that making tonks queer and important to this story–she’s in more scenes still to come as well–will help her at least feel like a real person in her own right, one who matters. plus, I am really invested in solidarity and intimacy between queer people who aren’t sleeping together/dating, so there’s that. anyway. feel free to let me know what you think. <3
